I Wanna Go Home

Today for me was a pretty depressive day. Depressive and uneventful. We left for Dallas on Tuesday, hoping we would only be here a couple of days, and come home to start chemo on Friday. But God had different plans for us, and we are supposed to stay here in Dallas till Wednesday. I think that was the depressive news for me, because I am really homesick. I want to go home, go to school, and sleep in my own bed. But they are going to give me really good care here. We went to UT Southwestern Children's Hospital today, and saw the E.N.T Oncologist, Dr. Sumer. I automatically like him, he was very optimistic. He told us he believed he can remove the tumor. And that it was way to early to be starting chemo, especially when we don't even have the final pathology to what kind of tumor it is, and if it really is cancer. He said that he didn't want to put me through that if there was an easier and more helpful way to handle it. Now I do have two spots on my my lungs, but I don't know the details about those. He stuck a light down my nose, and we watched on the screen, as he looked at my throat. We saw the tumor. Its pretty big, and it still blocks some of my airway. We all agreed that he should have a more thorough exam, and put me to sleep. So tomorrow morning at 7:00 a.m I will be put to sleep, and the doctor will take a better look at the tumor. He will all so do a biopsy. Other than being sad about having to stay, I am happy that we came here. I haven't heard this good of news in a long time. I know for sure God brought us here for a reason. I feel like he finally is answering all of our prayers. I still believe that this was supposed to happen. That this happened to me, to tell my story to others and inspire them to follow Christ. And to show people how God can work miracles in everyone. I can't tell right now, but I have an idea. I can't wait to get back home though, and get back to my life. To have a life. I need my friends right now, to make me laugh, and to make me happy. But right now this is where I need to be, and God sent us here for me to be blessed by these doctors. I have to admit though I sure do miss Amarillo!