Patience. A word that most people really don't wanna hear. Being patient is tough. Especially when your waiting for big news. I had some follow up scans yesterday. A cat scan, a pet scan, and a chest X-ray. I'm pretty used to them so it's not a big deal, it's the waiting for the results that truly kill me. There is always that feeling that the cancer could come back, and I would have to fight all over again. So I always get a little nervous when I'm waiting for results.
When my doctor called to tell us what the scanned said it really scared us. They said that the spots were back, in the lung that I just had surgery on. That of course freaked me out. But how could they already be back when they all were removed a month ago? My doctor reassured us that it probably was just scar tissue. Which was a relief. But now we will probably have to do scans in Dallas or Houston, because they are more advanced then Amarillo. That means more traveling for me... Yay. So I'm praying for good news and keeping my head up. Always trusting in Gods plan for me.
Psalm 40:1
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Saturday, September 17, 2011
I Fought Like A Girl And Won.
Well I have had two surgeries since my last post. And al though they were big procedures, the recovery was easy. It wasn't truly that bad, the pain was easy to handle and the wounds quickly healed up. So now I have two more scars to add to the rest. And they have already started to fade.
All the spots are gone. And we have gotten the pathology back which told us that all the cancer cells were in fact cancer, and one of them still had live cancer cells. And if there were to be more spots popping up they would just go in and pluck them out. Which isn't a big deal.
I am healed since then. Going to school, being with friends, football games, normal teenage activities. Which I am so happy to be doing and participating in.
Even though they won't tell me I am cancer- free for awhile, I believe that I am. Healed. A word that means alot to me.
A word that in some situations I didn't think I would ever come to be. Looking back at what I've gone through makes me emotional. To think I was so close to dying but pulled through. Everything I missed out on, the things I lost, all the disappointments, it really sucked, but it is all worth it. To have those battle scars, to show the world that I beat cancer and that nothing can stop me. It shows that positivity and faith can really make a big difference. The quote, "You don't know what you have until it's gone," is so true. We often take advantage of our life's, what we have, the relationships we have, but you never know when it could all be taken away. Gone. So live life to the fullest, love a little more, and hate a little less. Thank God everyday for your many blessings, for good days, and good times. God blesses us everyday in every situation. He blessed me when I was sick and continues to do so. I think sometimes where I would be if I hadn't gotten sick. And I think I would have missed out on so many Godly people, and so many of God's blessings and miracles. I am alive today because God has more plans for me. Me being sick was Gods plan. I don't know what he has planned, none of us do. But I trusted God enough to heal me, and he did. We all want sunny days and shady trees, but sometimes we have to make due with the rain. And wait for the rainbow that follows.
- Posted using Madison's iPad<3
All the spots are gone. And we have gotten the pathology back which told us that all the cancer cells were in fact cancer, and one of them still had live cancer cells. And if there were to be more spots popping up they would just go in and pluck them out. Which isn't a big deal.
I am healed since then. Going to school, being with friends, football games, normal teenage activities. Which I am so happy to be doing and participating in.
Even though they won't tell me I am cancer- free for awhile, I believe that I am. Healed. A word that means alot to me.
A word that in some situations I didn't think I would ever come to be. Looking back at what I've gone through makes me emotional. To think I was so close to dying but pulled through. Everything I missed out on, the things I lost, all the disappointments, it really sucked, but it is all worth it. To have those battle scars, to show the world that I beat cancer and that nothing can stop me. It shows that positivity and faith can really make a big difference. The quote, "You don't know what you have until it's gone," is so true. We often take advantage of our life's, what we have, the relationships we have, but you never know when it could all be taken away. Gone. So live life to the fullest, love a little more, and hate a little less. Thank God everyday for your many blessings, for good days, and good times. God blesses us everyday in every situation. He blessed me when I was sick and continues to do so. I think sometimes where I would be if I hadn't gotten sick. And I think I would have missed out on so many Godly people, and so many of God's blessings and miracles. I am alive today because God has more plans for me. Me being sick was Gods plan. I don't know what he has planned, none of us do. But I trusted God enough to heal me, and he did. We all want sunny days and shady trees, but sometimes we have to make due with the rain. And wait for the rainbow that follows.
- Posted using Madison's iPad<3
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