My enemy

The days recently have blurred together. The past week has been an emotional roller coaster. I still remember the surgery. I felt like they took all my air away, and I was going to die. I also remember crying, and how they had to tie me down. When I lost air, I thought there was no hope. I survived. The doctors told me I was a miracle, and I know that I couldn't done it without God. But I can't help but wonder, where is God? And why did this happen to me? What did I do to deserve this? I wish someone could answer my questions, but these questions are unquestionable. So now I'm sticking to staying positive, and strong. I know what could happen, but I'm not afraid. I have already made it this far. I feel like I can do anything , and accomplish everything.

It started 3 weeks ago. A little sore throat, but that was all. But it only got worse. Little did I know that a tumor was growing rapidly in my throat, and slowly blocking my airway. Scary, huh? I was taken to several doctors, but they all said it was a virus. No one had any idea that I was losing my airway. It was only getting worse. My first track meet was hard to run. My 2nd meet got only harder. I also played weekend basketball tournaments. I started to feel like I couldn't breath. It got bad enough to where I couldn't sleep, or eat. In two weeks I had already lost 11 pounds. I went to see more doctors and my pediatrician ordered a cat scan. Something was wrong.

Thats when they discovered "it". The tumor. My personal enemy. Thats what I'm fighting. On Monday night, I could barely breath, I had to do an emergency surgery. I was scared before surgery, but I didn't think it would be as bad as it was. But as I lay on the examination table, and my throat collapsed I realized how bad the situation was. I was awake as they cut my throat, and I cried, praying the pain would go away. And I could be healthy again. I know that my doctors would never want to hurt me in any way, they saved my life. I'm thankful, I have alot to be thankful for. I'm blessed to be here today.

It's going to be difficult, and hard. We are taking this day to day. Its a crazy thing to go through, but I can overcome this. I will overcome this. I am strong, and I am getting stronger everyday. I know God is with me, holding my hand along the way. It's going to be a long journey, but I can make it. I'm pretty much fearless.