Never Give Up The Faith.

"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith, and belief in yourself, vision, handwork, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.".

I just finishes a purity program with Carenet, that discuses the importance of staying pure. During that program we went on a retreat. At that retreat we were given some time to sit and be quiet and just let God speak to us. In that time I opened my heart to really hear God and I felt him saying I was NOT going to die. But live and tell my testimony of faith to others. I believed that he was truly telling me this and so I decided that whatever problems I was having I was going to give them to God. I was going to let God work out his plan the way it was meant to be, not the way I expected it. I feel that God is using me and my story to glorify him, and he will heal me when he wants to do so.
Today I finished my last set of scans. A pet scan and a cat scan which scan my body for more cancer. I have 5 spots. It looks as if the infection I had is now gone, and the spots are the same, and haven't grown at all. To me that is great news. And I feel as if the spots are not cancer at all. My doctors want to remove them but I really think we should leave them and monitor them. They haven't grown, so I don't think they are cancerous. We are going to seek a second opinion. To see if maybe there is another way to remove them and handle this.
I still like to tell myself I am cancer free. The word REMISSION makes me happy inside and hopeful that all of this junk is almost over. But like I said God will do it on his terms.

"I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done."
Psalm 118:17



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A Little Bit Stronger

Wow. So much has happened since my last post. I finally finished my last two chemo's! And my throat healed up fine! I got a very nice scar there actually! :) I am up to 118 pounds, and finally relearned how to swallow. Which took therapy. I'm eating a ton, and I am pretty much able to do everything my friends are doing! My hair is growing back, and it is curly which is exactly what I wanted it to do. Before I learned how to swallow I had to get a g- button put in my stomach. The button just opens and you can put food inside, and medicine. I don't use it anymore though, because I am eating regularly with no complications. I have been going out and being social. And pretty much working on being a regular kid!
But unfortunately my battle isn't over just yet. I have spots on my lungs. We don't know yet if they are cancerous or not. So my doctors want to do a double thorocodimee ( that's not how you spell it) which is a surgery where they would split open my chest and remove the spots. Which kinda sucks. So we are seeking other possible options.
Other than that my make a wish trip is coming up! I have decided to go to the Bahamas! We will probably go next month! I am super excited!!
I would like to think of myself as cancer free. But with those spots we don't know. We are just praying still. I am so thankful for everyones love and support. It means the world to me, and makes the light at the end of the tunnel a little more brighter!

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