So we got results and a new nodule has popped up. Yay. I am on a new medicine because the doctors are thinking it might be another infection called aspergillus. Which I had in the spring. We are hoping and praying that it is so I don't have to do ANOTHER surgery. I was really sure that this was all over, but I knew in the back of my mind it could come back. So I am on an anti-fungal medicine, and doing weekly blood draws. I'm not the luckiest person in the world by a long shot... But I am blessed. And I have God on my side.
I have been going to school this year, and my classes are a little bit tougher then I remember. Which is stressful sometimes but I wouldn't give it up for anything! It's the little things that make a big difference!
So life is good right now! A little stressful but better than how it was last year at this time. So grateful that God has allowed me to get this far. Stronger than I have ever been. What's a little stress compared to cancer? Nothing.
"Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory."
Psalm 73:23-24
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
"Good Things Come To Those Who Wait."
Patience. A word that most people really don't wanna hear. Being patient is tough. Especially when your waiting for big news. I had some follow up scans yesterday. A cat scan, a pet scan, and a chest X-ray. I'm pretty used to them so it's not a big deal, it's the waiting for the results that truly kill me. There is always that feeling that the cancer could come back, and I would have to fight all over again. So I always get a little nervous when I'm waiting for results.
When my doctor called to tell us what the scanned said it really scared us. They said that the spots were back, in the lung that I just had surgery on. That of course freaked me out. But how could they already be back when they all were removed a month ago? My doctor reassured us that it probably was just scar tissue. Which was a relief. But now we will probably have to do scans in Dallas or Houston, because they are more advanced then Amarillo. That means more traveling for me... Yay. So I'm praying for good news and keeping my head up. Always trusting in Gods plan for me.
Psalm 40:1
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
When my doctor called to tell us what the scanned said it really scared us. They said that the spots were back, in the lung that I just had surgery on. That of course freaked me out. But how could they already be back when they all were removed a month ago? My doctor reassured us that it probably was just scar tissue. Which was a relief. But now we will probably have to do scans in Dallas or Houston, because they are more advanced then Amarillo. That means more traveling for me... Yay. So I'm praying for good news and keeping my head up. Always trusting in Gods plan for me.
Psalm 40:1
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
I Fought Like A Girl And Won.
Well I have had two surgeries since my last post. And al though they were big procedures, the recovery was easy. It wasn't truly that bad, the pain was easy to handle and the wounds quickly healed up. So now I have two more scars to add to the rest. And they have already started to fade.
All the spots are gone. And we have gotten the pathology back which told us that all the cancer cells were in fact cancer, and one of them still had live cancer cells. And if there were to be more spots popping up they would just go in and pluck them out. Which isn't a big deal.
I am healed since then. Going to school, being with friends, football games, normal teenage activities. Which I am so happy to be doing and participating in.
Even though they won't tell me I am cancer- free for awhile, I believe that I am. Healed. A word that means alot to me.
A word that in some situations I didn't think I would ever come to be. Looking back at what I've gone through makes me emotional. To think I was so close to dying but pulled through. Everything I missed out on, the things I lost, all the disappointments, it really sucked, but it is all worth it. To have those battle scars, to show the world that I beat cancer and that nothing can stop me. It shows that positivity and faith can really make a big difference. The quote, "You don't know what you have until it's gone," is so true. We often take advantage of our life's, what we have, the relationships we have, but you never know when it could all be taken away. Gone. So live life to the fullest, love a little more, and hate a little less. Thank God everyday for your many blessings, for good days, and good times. God blesses us everyday in every situation. He blessed me when I was sick and continues to do so. I think sometimes where I would be if I hadn't gotten sick. And I think I would have missed out on so many Godly people, and so many of God's blessings and miracles. I am alive today because God has more plans for me. Me being sick was Gods plan. I don't know what he has planned, none of us do. But I trusted God enough to heal me, and he did. We all want sunny days and shady trees, but sometimes we have to make due with the rain. And wait for the rainbow that follows.
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All the spots are gone. And we have gotten the pathology back which told us that all the cancer cells were in fact cancer, and one of them still had live cancer cells. And if there were to be more spots popping up they would just go in and pluck them out. Which isn't a big deal.
I am healed since then. Going to school, being with friends, football games, normal teenage activities. Which I am so happy to be doing and participating in.
Even though they won't tell me I am cancer- free for awhile, I believe that I am. Healed. A word that means alot to me.
A word that in some situations I didn't think I would ever come to be. Looking back at what I've gone through makes me emotional. To think I was so close to dying but pulled through. Everything I missed out on, the things I lost, all the disappointments, it really sucked, but it is all worth it. To have those battle scars, to show the world that I beat cancer and that nothing can stop me. It shows that positivity and faith can really make a big difference. The quote, "You don't know what you have until it's gone," is so true. We often take advantage of our life's, what we have, the relationships we have, but you never know when it could all be taken away. Gone. So live life to the fullest, love a little more, and hate a little less. Thank God everyday for your many blessings, for good days, and good times. God blesses us everyday in every situation. He blessed me when I was sick and continues to do so. I think sometimes where I would be if I hadn't gotten sick. And I think I would have missed out on so many Godly people, and so many of God's blessings and miracles. I am alive today because God has more plans for me. Me being sick was Gods plan. I don't know what he has planned, none of us do. But I trusted God enough to heal me, and he did. We all want sunny days and shady trees, but sometimes we have to make due with the rain. And wait for the rainbow that follows.
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Sunday, July 3, 2011
Trust.
So we had an appointment in Houston at the cancer center there called M.D Anderson. They gave us no other option than to go through with the thoracotomy. On July 19th I will have surgery to remove the spots on my right lung. They will make a incision on my right shoulder blade the size of a pinky. They will go in and push the muscle aside, cut through a rib, and take my lung out. Then they use tools to clamp the lung then use a different one to cut it out. When they have removed all the spots that they can feel, they will sew me back up. I will be recovering from that surgery in the hospital for 3 to 5 days or at least until the drain tube is able to come out. I will fly home and wait for however many weeks it takes me to heal, then go back and have it done again on the left side. Deja Vu right?
I am doing this risk group with my church with this group of girls who make risks in order to live a more Godly life. My risk this week was to put my complete trust in God.
1 Peter 5:7
"Give all your worries, and cares to God, for he cares about you."
Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Psalms 31:14-15
"But as for me, I trust in you, O LORD; I say, " You are my God,"
My times are in your hands."
I am not scared yet about my surgery. But I can tell you I will be soon. So I'm putting my complete trust in God. I'm gonna trust him with all my mind, heart, and soul. And pray that this will be the last battle I have to fight. So I can finally say goodbye to this horrible illness and be known as a survivor.
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Saturday, June 11, 2011
Summertime<3
Thank God it's summertime. Everyone needs a long break, including me. I'm just really happy to have a normal summer without all the cancer crap. Summer is a time for rest and fun. I am determined to have a great summer and do those things.
Matthew 11:28
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”
I have been getting stronger everyday. I am worry free right now and even though it's just the start of summer, I have already had a great one.
On July 5th we are leaving for my Make-A-Wish trip in the Bahama's and I am super excited.:) Its gonna be a blast! And I am soo super pumped!
No new new's on my lungs right now. So I have nothing new to update. I'm so extremely blessed to be loved by so many people. So keep the prayers coming! :)
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Matthew 11:28
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”
I have been getting stronger everyday. I am worry free right now and even though it's just the start of summer, I have already had a great one.
On July 5th we are leaving for my Make-A-Wish trip in the Bahama's and I am super excited.:) Its gonna be a blast! And I am soo super pumped!
No new new's on my lungs right now. So I have nothing new to update. I'm so extremely blessed to be loved by so many people. So keep the prayers coming! :)
- Posted using Madison's iPad<3
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Never Give Up The Faith.
"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith, and belief in yourself, vision, handwork, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.".
I just finishes a purity program with Carenet, that discuses the importance of staying pure. During that program we went on a retreat. At that retreat we were given some time to sit and be quiet and just let God speak to us. In that time I opened my heart to really hear God and I felt him saying I was NOT going to die. But live and tell my testimony of faith to others. I believed that he was truly telling me this and so I decided that whatever problems I was having I was going to give them to God. I was going to let God work out his plan the way it was meant to be, not the way I expected it. I feel that God is using me and my story to glorify him, and he will heal me when he wants to do so.
Today I finished my last set of scans. A pet scan and a cat scan which scan my body for more cancer. I have 5 spots. It looks as if the infection I had is now gone, and the spots are the same, and haven't grown at all. To me that is great news. And I feel as if the spots are not cancer at all. My doctors want to remove them but I really think we should leave them and monitor them. They haven't grown, so I don't think they are cancerous. We are going to seek a second opinion. To see if maybe there is another way to remove them and handle this.
I still like to tell myself I am cancer free. The word REMISSION makes me happy inside and hopeful that all of this junk is almost over. But like I said God will do it on his terms.
"I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done."
Psalm 118:17
- Posted using Madison's iPad<3
I just finishes a purity program with Carenet, that discuses the importance of staying pure. During that program we went on a retreat. At that retreat we were given some time to sit and be quiet and just let God speak to us. In that time I opened my heart to really hear God and I felt him saying I was NOT going to die. But live and tell my testimony of faith to others. I believed that he was truly telling me this and so I decided that whatever problems I was having I was going to give them to God. I was going to let God work out his plan the way it was meant to be, not the way I expected it. I feel that God is using me and my story to glorify him, and he will heal me when he wants to do so.
Today I finished my last set of scans. A pet scan and a cat scan which scan my body for more cancer. I have 5 spots. It looks as if the infection I had is now gone, and the spots are the same, and haven't grown at all. To me that is great news. And I feel as if the spots are not cancer at all. My doctors want to remove them but I really think we should leave them and monitor them. They haven't grown, so I don't think they are cancerous. We are going to seek a second opinion. To see if maybe there is another way to remove them and handle this.
I still like to tell myself I am cancer free. The word REMISSION makes me happy inside and hopeful that all of this junk is almost over. But like I said God will do it on his terms.
"I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done."
Psalm 118:17
- Posted using Madison's iPad<3
Thursday, May 19, 2011
A Little Bit Stronger
Wow. So much has happened since my last post. I finally finished my last two chemo's! And my throat healed up fine! I got a very nice scar there actually! :) I am up to 118 pounds, and finally relearned how to swallow. Which took therapy. I'm eating a ton, and I am pretty much able to do everything my friends are doing! My hair is growing back, and it is curly which is exactly what I wanted it to do. Before I learned how to swallow I had to get a g- button put in my stomach. The button just opens and you can put food inside, and medicine. I don't use it anymore though, because I am eating regularly with no complications. I have been going out and being social. And pretty much working on being a regular kid!
But unfortunately my battle isn't over just yet. I have spots on my lungs. We don't know yet if they are cancerous or not. So my doctors want to do a double thorocodimee ( that's not how you spell it) which is a surgery where they would split open my chest and remove the spots. Which kinda sucks. So we are seeking other possible options.
Other than that my make a wish trip is coming up! I have decided to go to the Bahamas! We will probably go next month! I am super excited!!
I would like to think of myself as cancer free. But with those spots we don't know. We are just praying still. I am so thankful for everyones love and support. It means the world to me, and makes the light at the end of the tunnel a little more brighter!
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But unfortunately my battle isn't over just yet. I have spots on my lungs. We don't know yet if they are cancerous or not. So my doctors want to do a double thorocodimee ( that's not how you spell it) which is a surgery where they would split open my chest and remove the spots. Which kinda sucks. So we are seeking other possible options.
Other than that my make a wish trip is coming up! I have decided to go to the Bahamas! We will probably go next month! I am super excited!!
I would like to think of myself as cancer free. But with those spots we don't know. We are just praying still. I am so thankful for everyones love and support. It means the world to me, and makes the light at the end of the tunnel a little more brighter!
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